You may have heard the statement “the only way out, is going within”. This truth has been taught, preached, and propagated amongst the ascended masters of all religions and native cultures alike for aeons.
Let us walk a less traveled road. If you do not follow the masses, tend to think less of what others think and more on how you feel within, then your on the right track.
It was Spring 2020, I was finding my peaceful flow working in the garden, trying not to mind what others were stupidly wasting there time with (yes, I was working on my judgment too), and yet still disturbed at the blind faith of everyone all around me. I trust me first, some think of me as arrogant in this way, but this usually proves to work out the best for me personally. I had not gone back to work because of the mask mandate and the same week my ‘boyfriend’ is breaking up with me because I can’t make him – insert emotion here – ie; happy, confident, included, etc. Now, this could’ve gone a few different ways but I chose me.
And I kept choosing me, putting myself as top priority, and diving into the occulted knowledge that was now outpouring itself through the books I had kept over the years and the internet. So much connections it felt like fireworks going off for a 6 months straight. I let go, I surrendered, I died to my old self. This was no weekend warrior metaphysical retreat, I literally starred into the abyss until I was the abyss, then I somehow returned to this body, this reality, but I was completely made differently. I no longer made up stories, I lived in the present moment. I was able to integrate The Four Agreements as a habit almost by just making the decision to do so. All of my accumulated seeking, experiences, epiphanies, knowledge, understanding, somehow congealed and all beautifully fit together.
Then and now currently, I feel I am the closest I have ever been to my true essence. This the most alive I have felt, and such a freedom to be me, to just be. I made up my mind that I was free from stories and opinions created by the made up world, made up identities, made up ways that others think is the right way to live. From Plato’s Cave, the Vedic Saga, Nag Hammadi, and the rest of the noteworthy circulated ancient texts, but also the occulted texts, hidden meanings revealing themselves as I read them – it didn’t matter what book, including the Bible, the clearest of understandings where filling my mind and my heart and everything all at once was in flow and making sense.
The leap is choosing yourself. You let go of everything, everyone, all the stuff, all the ideals, and surrender. Hold yourself with as much love as you can muster, and keep it flowing to all the aspects of yourself. Every day I smile and fill with love for being present and being me. I don’t keep secrets, harbor negative thoughts, and only look for the divine in everyone and everything. It wasn’t hard to switch my thoughts, it was a complete and total surrender. That was my key. We all have a key, its up to us to find it.